Post by Kari on Mar 29, 2009 18:11:09 GMT -6
Who Am I to Say?
Who am I to say
That I am something.
Who am I to say
That my words matter.
Who am I to say
That my existence is meaningful.
Who am I to say
That I am anything
I may not be old
I may not be young
But how can I show who I am...
When even I don't know.
Should I die tomorrow...
Would someone be able to see
The essence of who was me.
Would anyone say I was something?
Would my words have mattered?
Would my existence be meaningful to someone?
Would what I did mean anything?
Who am I to say?
Goodbye
We shared laughter,
We shared tears,
We had fun,
Throughout the years.
Every minute,
Every day,
You were there,
With the right things to say.
Now I have to go,
And leave you behind,
But never forget me,
For you'll be in my mind.
And I must bid you ado,
Farewell my friend,
I have much to do,
Don't forget I love you.
I'm just a Kid
"Great job"
Why is it so hard for you to get out
Aren't you proud of me?
Are you ashamed?
I don't know why life has made you this way
"I love you"
Why is it so hard for you to say
Maybe you haven't felt this way
But I keep holding on
To this feeling
Hopefully it won't be long
Until my head stops reeling
I'm just a kid
I'm thirteen years old
I don't know why
You're being so cold
I don't know what I did
I don't know where to start
I don't know if there's even a place for me
In your heart
"You'll do great"
I've heard these words before
But not towards me
It seems like you've closed a door
One you won't let me open up to see
"You can do it"
I've heard it said
I just wish
That you could get it in your head
Do you love me?
Because I'm a teen
And I go everyday
Thinking that no one does
Do you think of me?
I think of you and I need to know this because
I'm just a kid
I'm thirteen years old
I don't know why you're being so cold
I don't know what I did
I don't know where to start
I just want to know if there's a place for me
In your heart...
Four Years
A week without you
I already am ready to call your name
Two weeks without you
I still feel as though everything is the same
I'm ready to hear your voice
The beautiful light-hearted sound
The one that made me fall in love
Even though everyone one else was around
I'm ready to see your eyes
Both brown, both pretty
I'm ready to hear your sarcastic comments
Because you're always being witty
If I had to survive one year without you
In the back of my mind you would still always be there
If I had to survive four years without you
I'd probably die, I swear
A week, a month, a year without you
It's all the same
It will be when my heart is at it's lowest
When my mind, full of thoughts of you
Will drive me insane
Contradiction
Holding on
But at the same time letting go
Of everything I want
Of everything I know
Wanting to love
Yet I feel hate
Feelings that come quick
That won't hesitate
Wanting to blend in
Yet somehow I stand out
People say I'm pretty
But that I highly doubt
Wanting to have pride
Yet I'm really insecure
Wanting to know the truth
Yet when I hear it I'm still unsure
Another Night
There's something I have to tell you
And I know it may sound weird
Because I haven't only thought about my reaction, I've thought about yours too
And that increases my amount of fear
There's something I have to say
And truthfully I don't know how
Because I yearn to tell you everyday
So it's still scary now
You ask me what I'm scared of
And I say I'm scared of what I feel
For it's the only thing I've thought of
And I know it's all too real
You tell me to just tell you
To sit,calm down, and relax
But what you don't understand is
If I say these things
I can't take them back
If I say these things
It could change everything
And I don't know if that would be right
So I guess my feelings will have to wait
For another day, another night
What Else Can I Be?
You tell me I don't have to act so strong
But I don't know how else to be
You tell me holding in my feelings are wrong
Well I'm sorry that's just me
You tell me to open up
Let the world in
But I just don't feel like it
I don't want anyone to see me
You tell me to follow my heart
Ignore the thoughts in my head
You tell me that I think too much
But I just didn't care about what you had said
You tell me I'm pretty
But no matter what you say I won't think it is true
You say I'm the best thing that has happened
And I say if I'm all you got then I pity you too
Not Over You
This is starting to get old,
But I can’t go back from here.
I’m barely breathing,
But I force a smile,
‘Cause I can’t let you know.
I can't handle anymore lies.
I can't let myself fall any deeper.
You have my heart,
And you know it.
My fear and insecurities heighten around you.
They’re tearing me apart,
And I just can't seem to hold myself together.
I can’t let go of you as much as I want to.
I’ve seen things I never wanted,
Felt things I never believed in.
That shaky feeling I get around you.
The adrenaline rush I wish I could get rid of.
The tears I can’t keep from coming.
It’s all because of you.
I won’t let you hurt me anymore,
I won’t fall for you anymore
Loves doesn’t exist,
But I’m still falling for you.
Falling deeper into false hope,
I don’t want to lose myself.
I’m losing my heart
I’ve made my mistakes
I’ve had my regrets
But I don’t regret this.
Somehow I don’t regret you.
I’ll learn from this.
No-one will get my heart again,
‘Cause the pains real,
And I refuse to fall.
I’m not strong enough to handle this,
But I won’t break down again.
Not over you.
Look at Her
Look at her,
a broken girl,
lost alone
in a broken world.
Hear her name,
her broken voice
is a scratching sound,
a broken noise.
Touch her face,
broken dreams,
a fading wish,
she broke her wings.
Taste her lips,
a broken kiss,
empty shell,
broken bliss.
Smell her skin,
broken thought,
the pain within,
a broken heart.
Growing fear,
broken bone,
That little girl
is so alone.
Left
"You can come to me about anything," you said,
my eyes swelling with tears.
I responded with a weak nod,
just dying to jump into your arms
and hug like we used to.
Look at the little heart shaped box,
The color of rubies, wrapped in a little pink bow,
Rip it off, open the box,
Take all that it contains,
and leave me with just tears.
"I've been losing my feelings for you,"
Venom drips from those heartbreaking words.
Making me want to go back to my old ways,
Crying myself to sleep, wondering if I'll be strong enough
to make it through the next morning.
You never forget your first love,
and I doubt I'll ever forget what we shared.
Two kids shouldn't share the same heart,
One of them ends up leaving, and it's torn to pieces.
I could never be what you wanted me to be,
The happy, outgoing, lovely girl you wanted.
You called me beautiful,
in my mind, I called you blind.
I Will
If I were perfect then this would be easy.
If I were perfect then maybe I would fit in.
If I were perfect then I might have a home.
If I were perfect then maybe I wouldn't be scarred.
I will walk down the center,
I will make a new path.
I have no rules to guide me,
This is what it's like to be me.
I'm hurt by cruel glances and snickers.
I'm destroyed with evil laughs and eyes.
I'm broken by cold words and smiles.
I'm pressured into pretending to be something I'm not.
I will continues to walk down the center,
I will make a new path.
I have no rules to guide me,
You can't tell me what to do.
I'm scarred and hurt.
I'm broken and bleeding.
I'm out of place can't fine my home.
I'm too afraid to live like the me some people see
I walk down the center,
I'm making a new path.
I have no rules to guide me,
I will not be want you want me to be.
Who am I to say
That I am something.
Who am I to say
That my words matter.
Who am I to say
That my existence is meaningful.
Who am I to say
That I am anything
I may not be old
I may not be young
But how can I show who I am...
When even I don't know.
Should I die tomorrow...
Would someone be able to see
The essence of who was me.
Would anyone say I was something?
Would my words have mattered?
Would my existence be meaningful to someone?
Would what I did mean anything?
Who am I to say?
Goodbye
We shared laughter,
We shared tears,
We had fun,
Throughout the years.
Every minute,
Every day,
You were there,
With the right things to say.
Now I have to go,
And leave you behind,
But never forget me,
For you'll be in my mind.
And I must bid you ado,
Farewell my friend,
I have much to do,
Don't forget I love you.
I'm just a Kid
"Great job"
Why is it so hard for you to get out
Aren't you proud of me?
Are you ashamed?
I don't know why life has made you this way
"I love you"
Why is it so hard for you to say
Maybe you haven't felt this way
But I keep holding on
To this feeling
Hopefully it won't be long
Until my head stops reeling
I'm just a kid
I'm thirteen years old
I don't know why
You're being so cold
I don't know what I did
I don't know where to start
I don't know if there's even a place for me
In your heart
"You'll do great"
I've heard these words before
But not towards me
It seems like you've closed a door
One you won't let me open up to see
"You can do it"
I've heard it said
I just wish
That you could get it in your head
Do you love me?
Because I'm a teen
And I go everyday
Thinking that no one does
Do you think of me?
I think of you and I need to know this because
I'm just a kid
I'm thirteen years old
I don't know why you're being so cold
I don't know what I did
I don't know where to start
I just want to know if there's a place for me
In your heart...
Four Years
A week without you
I already am ready to call your name
Two weeks without you
I still feel as though everything is the same
I'm ready to hear your voice
The beautiful light-hearted sound
The one that made me fall in love
Even though everyone one else was around
I'm ready to see your eyes
Both brown, both pretty
I'm ready to hear your sarcastic comments
Because you're always being witty
If I had to survive one year without you
In the back of my mind you would still always be there
If I had to survive four years without you
I'd probably die, I swear
A week, a month, a year without you
It's all the same
It will be when my heart is at it's lowest
When my mind, full of thoughts of you
Will drive me insane
Contradiction
Holding on
But at the same time letting go
Of everything I want
Of everything I know
Wanting to love
Yet I feel hate
Feelings that come quick
That won't hesitate
Wanting to blend in
Yet somehow I stand out
People say I'm pretty
But that I highly doubt
Wanting to have pride
Yet I'm really insecure
Wanting to know the truth
Yet when I hear it I'm still unsure
Another Night
There's something I have to tell you
And I know it may sound weird
Because I haven't only thought about my reaction, I've thought about yours too
And that increases my amount of fear
There's something I have to say
And truthfully I don't know how
Because I yearn to tell you everyday
So it's still scary now
You ask me what I'm scared of
And I say I'm scared of what I feel
For it's the only thing I've thought of
And I know it's all too real
You tell me to just tell you
To sit,calm down, and relax
But what you don't understand is
If I say these things
I can't take them back
If I say these things
It could change everything
And I don't know if that would be right
So I guess my feelings will have to wait
For another day, another night
What Else Can I Be?
You tell me I don't have to act so strong
But I don't know how else to be
You tell me holding in my feelings are wrong
Well I'm sorry that's just me
You tell me to open up
Let the world in
But I just don't feel like it
I don't want anyone to see me
You tell me to follow my heart
Ignore the thoughts in my head
You tell me that I think too much
But I just didn't care about what you had said
You tell me I'm pretty
But no matter what you say I won't think it is true
You say I'm the best thing that has happened
And I say if I'm all you got then I pity you too
Not Over You
This is starting to get old,
But I can’t go back from here.
I’m barely breathing,
But I force a smile,
‘Cause I can’t let you know.
I can't handle anymore lies.
I can't let myself fall any deeper.
You have my heart,
And you know it.
My fear and insecurities heighten around you.
They’re tearing me apart,
And I just can't seem to hold myself together.
I can’t let go of you as much as I want to.
I’ve seen things I never wanted,
Felt things I never believed in.
That shaky feeling I get around you.
The adrenaline rush I wish I could get rid of.
The tears I can’t keep from coming.
It’s all because of you.
I won’t let you hurt me anymore,
I won’t fall for you anymore
Loves doesn’t exist,
But I’m still falling for you.
Falling deeper into false hope,
I don’t want to lose myself.
I’m losing my heart
I’ve made my mistakes
I’ve had my regrets
But I don’t regret this.
Somehow I don’t regret you.
I’ll learn from this.
No-one will get my heart again,
‘Cause the pains real,
And I refuse to fall.
I’m not strong enough to handle this,
But I won’t break down again.
Not over you.
Look at Her
Look at her,
a broken girl,
lost alone
in a broken world.
Hear her name,
her broken voice
is a scratching sound,
a broken noise.
Touch her face,
broken dreams,
a fading wish,
she broke her wings.
Taste her lips,
a broken kiss,
empty shell,
broken bliss.
Smell her skin,
broken thought,
the pain within,
a broken heart.
Growing fear,
broken bone,
That little girl
is so alone.
Left
"You can come to me about anything," you said,
my eyes swelling with tears.
I responded with a weak nod,
just dying to jump into your arms
and hug like we used to.
Look at the little heart shaped box,
The color of rubies, wrapped in a little pink bow,
Rip it off, open the box,
Take all that it contains,
and leave me with just tears.
"I've been losing my feelings for you,"
Venom drips from those heartbreaking words.
Making me want to go back to my old ways,
Crying myself to sleep, wondering if I'll be strong enough
to make it through the next morning.
You never forget your first love,
and I doubt I'll ever forget what we shared.
Two kids shouldn't share the same heart,
One of them ends up leaving, and it's torn to pieces.
I could never be what you wanted me to be,
The happy, outgoing, lovely girl you wanted.
You called me beautiful,
in my mind, I called you blind.
I Will
If I were perfect then this would be easy.
If I were perfect then maybe I would fit in.
If I were perfect then I might have a home.
If I were perfect then maybe I wouldn't be scarred.
I will walk down the center,
I will make a new path.
I have no rules to guide me,
This is what it's like to be me.
I'm hurt by cruel glances and snickers.
I'm destroyed with evil laughs and eyes.
I'm broken by cold words and smiles.
I'm pressured into pretending to be something I'm not.
I will continues to walk down the center,
I will make a new path.
I have no rules to guide me,
You can't tell me what to do.
I'm scarred and hurt.
I'm broken and bleeding.
I'm out of place can't fine my home.
I'm too afraid to live like the me some people see
I walk down the center,
I'm making a new path.
I have no rules to guide me,
I will not be want you want me to be.