bEttER thAN [.s.u.p.e.r. .m.a.n.]

[!Wolfo.x;;]

bEttER thAN [.s.u.p.e.r. .m.a.n.]

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[ The one and only creature of the deep: Me in an orange peel[/b] ]


real name;; murr- Kaitlyn[/b]
screen name;; lovely- Wolfo.x[/b]
nickname;; grr- Kit, Kat, Kitty, Kitteh[/b]
rank;; I own joo- Goddess of Darkness[/b]
age;; learner’s permit time- 15 (and a half)[/b]
occupation;; I dun wanna job- Nope[/b]
relationships;; screw it all!- Single[/b]
skin;; average ghost- Pale, but not extremely so[/b]
eyes;; meh- Gray-blue and brown near the iris[/b]
hair;; meh… again- Brown that fades into brown-red tips[/b]

theme song;; it describes me so well- Lullaby by: Hypnogaja
role model;; yeah... he's dead now- Timothy Treadwell: The Grizzly Man
three words friends use to describe you;; this is true...- Courageous, Eccentric, Unique
quote to describe you;; my friend said this...- I don't love anyone. I just love everyone. There's a difference.



[ This is the shiz-nats: Favorites[/b] ]


animal;; Wolves and then all the canines and felines besides the domestic ones
color;; Black and normally mixed with another color
music genres;; Rock, metal, punk, emo, screamo, alternitive, and anything of the like
band;; Muse
brand of tape;; Scotch
book;; The Sight
TV Show;; Surivor
cereal;; Lucky Charms... cause I'm magically delicious... just kidding, it's really Frosted Flakes
movie;; Hercules, the Disney Version XD
website;; I'm sorry, but it's just gotta be FanFiction.net
class in school;; Theatre!!!
song;; As of now... So Cold by Breaking Benjamin



[ Sacrifice everything you know: Counting Characters[/b] ]


Total Characters: 6
Characters Dead: 0
Character in Kingdoms: 5
Royaume: 1
Rike: 1
Regno: 1
Regnum: 2
Loners: 1
Females: 3
Males: 3
Kids: 1



[ There's More to it Than This: Interesting Facts]

• I slow dance to KoRn
  
• I have double jointed toes

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[/li][li]I would go insane without my camera
[/li][li]The same goes for my phone[/color]
[/li][li]I have braces
[/li][li]I'm getting them off before school starts again[/color]
[/li][li]I dance like no other
[/li][li]I'm proud to say with confidence that my friends don't say nasty things about me behind my back, none of us do, that how good of friends we have[/color]
[/li][li]I'm on the verge of a mental breakdown; too much drama
[/li][li]I feel alive for once in my life[/color]
[/li][li]Everything is back in place[/li][/ul]
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[!Wolfo.x;;]

Wolfo.x

6.4.09

Well, today was the last day of school and I wanted to cry. Honest to god I did. The stupid school district put everyone together and now they're separating us once again. I wanted to cry so bad, my chest hurts like no other, but from an early age I was made fun of for my tears and I used to have no shoulder to cry on when it was reasonable. The kids I grew up with were cruel, and my mother yells at me so much I hide in my closet all alone. It was no fun to cry alone and be made fun of, so I taught myself not to cry.

So it's the end of school, I'm leaving Kia, and I'll be separated from most of my friends because my parents are assholes, and I want to bawl my ohhh I'm having fun tonight! eyes out- but I can't.

I feel awful. I'm so used to seeing my buddies everyday, having hugs from them and knowing that they're there when I need them. I love being able to know what they're doing, that they're safe, but now I can't and it worries me to no end. I feel like any of them could move away tomorrow and I would never know until many days later.

I know they said that they'd keep in touch, in fact, one of my closest friends refused to sign my yearbook because he claimed that he'd see me all summer, but I don't know how well that'll work out. I used to be able to walk to my friends' houses, now I can't because there's no ohhh I'm having fun tonight! sidewalk. I was looking through some of my pictures and I know that we'll never have these moments again.[/color][/size][/blockquote][/blockquote]

[!Wolfo.x;;]

Wolfo.x

6.30.09

So we're only about three weeks into summer and despite my doubts, I've been able to see my friends on an almost regular basis. But in the recent week, I've hurt some people I didn't mean to.

I've become someone who most people hate. My friend cheated on his girlfriend with me and I'm going to let you know this; Cheating hurts everyone. He lost her, I might lose him and I feel terrible, and she was crushed. This is my insight... I will tell my children when I grow older. I will tell them how much it hurts for everyone. Most people don't believe that it hurts the one who's not in the relationship. It does. I'm on the brink of losing a great friend of mine because we couldn't stop. I would be happy to love him like a brother, but even that seems impossible now. I will not try and pin the blame on him "He should've stopped himself." - "He knew better" - "We had history" - "He shouldn't have told anyone" We share the blame equally. I feel awful, I haven't eaten for two days because of this.

This is my warning to all who read this, don't cheat. Never think that if you're the one they're cheating with, it won't do anything. You get attached, no matter how many times you tell yourself no, and when it all gets revealed, everyone gets hurt. Even those around you. My other friend is pissed at me because of this. I feel like feeling like sh-t is too good for me. He really liked her, but we just couldn't break our habits and that has led to a bomb going off in our group of friends. I fear that we may never be the same again.[/color][/size][/blockquote][/blockquote]

[!Wolfo.x;;]

Wolfo.x

7.22.09

Everything has calmed down finally. This week has made me feel much better and I feel that everything is as great as it could ever be. My friends don't hate me for what I did, and I think because they know how much I feel. How I basically feel extremely sad when someone would just frown. How I get extra happy at the simple giggly things. I think it's because they know just how sorry I was that it happened and that I talked it out- I didn't just leave it to fester into something ugly.

With that said, me and my buddy are on good terms now. We don't do things anymore, but I still don't think everything is right enough for me to love him as a brother. Still, I was happy that we got to see each other again, and happy that I have moved on.

Though this experience is one I don't plan to ever experience again, it has changed me in unexplainable ways. I feel so much more free and I feel that I can touch the limits. I'm not saying to go do something as terrible to find yourself, but I am saying that this has helped me find myself. This may be because I isolated myself for a week after that. But, I feel that everything is good again and I don't have to hide myself in shame anymore. None of my friends mention it, they don't reference to it- we all know it was resolved and so act like it never happened.

With that out of the way, I must say that Hide and Seek is my favorite game of all time. It's a predator's game, and I rock at it. I know secrets about the game that no one else figures out right away. XD I also bought incense... it's a great thing and we have returned to our native ways. In our old mall, here where me and Kia live, there is climate control, the same stores we go to at the outside mall- but better, and more stores we like- like Earthbound and Taichen. And we can loiter in the food court... with actual seats. But insence... wow... we were lighting that stuff like crazy and I must say I know understand why my sister used it all the time... and why I liked her room. XD[/blockquote][/blockquote][/size][/color]