Explaining is the Key

[¿EmoHowl?]

He shot a look at her, and looked back at his phone. He moved away from the car as she took his hat off. He looked down shutting his eyes.

"You know there is a reason I did that....Mood swings. Hmph. I scare a lot of people. I was MADE to do that...Created, tortured, god damn Vampires."

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He opened his eyes, and darted toward the shade. He stopped just under the first tree right off the road, as he went by her he nudged her. He looked up at the sky, it was getting darker.

"Tag. You're it."[/b]

He knew she was gonna make him not run so fast, but she'd never say anything about climbing trees. His face showed it all, mischief. A kid like sneer, plans were oh so fun when no one knew what was coming.[/center]

[zynathme]

She smirked, taking off his hat and twirling it on his finger. "I look better in it, too bad," she shrugged lightly, putting in back, angling it like he did. She frowned when he started his rant about Vampires again, and ruffled his hair, saying in a final tone, "I refuse to visit that topic again. You can think whatever you like about yourself, but I should inform you that what you think of yourself is incorrect." She looked at him, waiting for him to comment or defy her statement, but he exited the car instead, tagging her and running off under the shade.

"Now you're talking," Alisha grinned, getting out of the car. She crouched a little, letting her wolf instinct take over her, and she ran, aiming for Alec.

[¿EmoHowl?]

He looked surprised as she came running at him, he looked up, and jumped clinging onto a branch. He pulled himself up, and wrapped his arms around it, as he laid on his chest looking like a scared cat. He looked around.

"Damn, that the hell was that comment? What I think is incorrect, excuse me...I'M THE VAMPIRE! I SEDUCE PEOPLE TO F--KING KILL THEM?!"

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He looked angry, and his last words were in anger. He glared at her, his eyes almost turning to a red. He jumped down in a flash standing in front of her.

"Don't try to hide it! You know what I am, and what makes you think I can't or won't ever kill you? If you got too close, I could lose it all. What makes you think I won't do it?!"[/b]

He turned around to keep from losing it. He wanted to be so much more human. Something that didn't live off blood, something that wasn't malicious in nature. He turned around, and without thinking he hugged her. For some reason, it didn't strike a sense of hunger, it struck a sense of wanted security.

"I'm sorry, forgive me, but that's why I can't be trusted."[/b]

He let go, moving to the car he took his hat off and opened the door throwing it in, he shut the door. But his face only seemed to show sorrow, sorrow of something he couldn't be. He scanned the car, how many people, humans, drove these cars. He looked at the dirt road, how many humans had walked it? How many humans had a life he wouldn't have?

He looked at her, his face no longer looking happy, or emotionless. Now it looked tired, worn, and sad. If he could cry, he would have, and what hurt even more, was, his body wanted to. And he knew he couldn't, which made him even less of a human.

He ran his fingers along the car, before he'd have only noticed its slickness and its cold. Now he noticed every grain, every scratch, and it was warm to him. Warm because he was colder than it. He was MEANT to be dead.

"If I were to ask you, to be more than just a friend, what would you say? Would you trust me enough...?"[/b][/center]

[zynathme]

Alisha skidded to a halt, looking up surprised at Alec, who looked rather ridiculous. She chuckled, but stopped abruptly as he jumped down in front of her. She took a step back as her reflexes kicked in, and her expression was one of shock as he let his anger and frustration out. She gritted her teeth, and stopped listening to him, stoning herself. She had a lot of experience with people yelling at her, and she had perfected her stoning technique. His eyes flashed red, and for the first time, she sensed the Vampire in him, and she didn't like it at all. She closed her eyes, not wanting to see anything.

Her eyes flew open as Alec hugged her, shocked for the second time. She breathed in deeply, trying to figure him out, but failing miserably. The drizzle turned into heavy rain, and Alisha tilted her head skywards, letting the rain wash her face. What was wrong with asking for a simple life, where everyone could just forget about troubles? And why wouldn't Alec let her trust him? It was as though he didn't want anyone to get closer to him, it was as though he was trying to shut her out.

She turned around, watching him run his hands over the car, and walked back towards him, totally drenched. His question surprised her, she wasn't expecting it, to say the very least. She felt the rain pounding her back, and noted that the rain was getting stronger. She had no reply to his question, she had no answer. She didn't think she could answer it, since she didn't know what he wanted. She shook her head, and looked down at her feet, before glancing up again.

"What do you mean, Alec?" she asked, her eyes searching his.

[¿EmoHowl?]

Alec ran his right hand down the right side of his face. He shut his eyes before opening them again removing his left hand from the car. He turned as he saw a car drive by, he turned back around as she responded. It was a question of uncertainty. He spoke it slower.

"If I were to ask you to be more....than...just....friends, what would you say? Would you trust..me...enough...to...be...your...boyfriend?"

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He expected a No, which would prove his whole point. He couldn't be trusted enough, but, if yes, he'd be more than happy to. He looked at her directly now, but his face was emotionless, no longer sad.

"I know you must be angry. You are probably going, what the hell? He runs away from the situation, but then invites me in?....I do that a lot. I really despise who I am. And as much as I want you to trust me, I fear letting you, then letting you down. Whether or not you believe it, it would hurt you a lot, to if possible at all, which it has happened, fall in love with me, and end up angering me or me losing control. It's horrible, that is why as close as I get close to you, I try to shake you from the closeness to me. I can be close to you, and love you, without ever doing harm. And it may tear me apart, but I'm okay. But you....If you were close, one thing I do wrong, could probably cause you to become detached, and after you being close, I'm not sure I'd be willing to let go. And I've never felt that before.....and as an eight year old would say, It scares me."[/b]

He continued looking at her for a second, and turned his head to the right to watch another car go by, this time it slowed down as it passed them. And then sped off again, he raised an eyebrow, and as he turned his head back forward, he looked down, letting his hair fall over his face.[/center]

[zynathme]

Alisha titled her head and she smiled slightly. She considered her answer, considered what she wanted to do. No, there was an answer, but she doubted whether Alec would agree with it. She leaned against the car, and had a comtemplative look.

"I'm not angry, I'm not confused, but I would have appreciated if you made it clearer. It's confusing enough as it is, what with your mood swings," she grinned breifly but turned serious again, twisiting her hands. "I want to try," she whispered, and looked up at him. He needed someone, he looked so alone as though there was nobody who would care for him. Ah well, she thought, they were pretty much in the same boat then. "But if it gets too hard for you, I promise to go away." She swallowed, relieved that what she wanted to say didn't come out wrongly.

She surveryed him, and smiled again as he looked down. He seemed vulnerable, a far cry from the Alec she saw earlier, the Alec who was more of a Vampire than human. Impulsively, she hugged him childishly, it was almost like an aggressive attack, and she burrowed her head in his chest, trying to make him feel better.

[¿EmoHowl?]

Alec hugged her back, as gentle as he could, otherwise he was afraid he'd hurt her. He closed his eyes, for a second he didn't believe what he heard was true. But all his defenses were down, everything.

"Sorry to interrupt the hug here, but, it's like....8:00 o'clock, aren't your parents gonna go apes.hit?"

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He smirked as he let go and looked down at her. He didn't want her to go, but, she would have to, because her parents seemed pretty strict. He frowned for a second cocking his head, he moved toward the car door opening it and checking his phone. Seven missed calls, three texts, and it was actually 8:30. He looked back at her.

"Don't get me wrong. I am NOT trying to get rid of you, I just don't want you to be, whats the word now adays, eh, grounded? But if they do, I can sneak in. Or I can scare the p.iss outta them, whole fang red eye crap going."[/b]

He smirked and darted around to her side of the car. He opened it, smiling. He hoped to cover up how he actually felt, shaken, surprised, and sorry. He watched her.

"I'm sorry for ruining the go crazy in the rain thing. I really am."[/center]

[zynathme]

She bit her lip, and suddenly became very interested with her shoes as he mentioned going back home. She mirrored his actions -- she opened the other car door to get her phone out, and shut the door, leaning against it. She looked up at the darkening sky, and the puddles which were the only proof left of the sudden rain that came and went. Alisha shook her head and replied, "Not home. Since, well, anywhere but home."

It sounded weird, even to her, so she took a deep breath and explained. "See, they're having a ... ball, with frilly dresses and posh talking and all, and I don't do dancing." She smiled apologetically, it was true though, the last time she danced was probably that time when she got too drunk. Of course, there was also another reason why she had no intention to go to the ball, but that wasn't necessary to know yet anyway.

[¿EmoHowl?]

Alec looked at her, his eyes sort of gazed at her. He watched her shut the door and lean against it. He put his hands in his pockets and sighed.

"Sadly, I don't dance much either. So what now?"

[/b]

He smiled at her, not really caring what they did. He just really didn't want her to be in trouble, over him. He held back any mood swings, and thought about something else. He looked away from her, and watched the road.[/center]

[zynathme]

Alisha considered his question then shrugged. It was really getting dark now, and very soon her mother was going to call her up. Of course she had her answer ready, she was just waiting for the phone to ring. She threw the phone up and caught it, repeating that action for a few more times before going over to Alec.

"You decide. My brain's refusing to function, and I'm sure you're more interesting than me."

She grinned and jumped lightly on the hood of the car, knowing that the car would support her. She wasn't that heavy anyways.

[¿EmoHowl?]

Alec moved to sit next to her, he looked up at the sky. He wasn't sure, he felt obligated to take her home. He watched her toss her phone up and down. His eyes scanned the area.

"I really should take you home. This is so, wrong. I like being with you, but, your parents are gonna be so mad."

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He looked at her, he wrapped his arms around here, setting his chin on her shoulder. He felt calm once again, he relaxed there. But kept his weight off, and of course was very gentle, to keep from hurting her. But being gentle had never been hard for him, he had a car after all, and managed to keep from putting dents in it.

"You really should go home, at least check in. You could be busted or whatever, and then I can go in and help you sneak out again. Just as long as they think you are safe."

He muttered his words softly, he hoped she'd agree to something. He wasn't going to just take her home, and be like, "oh well, your par are pissed. Bye." He wasn't like that. He pulled her closer to him, gently. [/center]

[zynathme]

Alisha was surprised when his arms enveloped her but smiled softly instead, leaning into him. She made friends but most of them never lasted. It wasn't much fun when people wanted to be friends with you just for your status, and most boys made use of that. Sure she had boyfriends, and all of them wanted to go public because that would get them so much more fame. Make them somebody.

But Alec was different. Call it intuition, call it sixth sense or call it being blind, she knew Alec was different. It wasn't very often when Alisha decided to trust someone blindly like that. It usually didn't end up nicely, but she couldn't care less.

"I like it. This wrong thing," she smirked slightly, before sighing a little. "I guess I'd have to go home sometime, but you don't know my mother," she frowned darkly, "She'd pull me right into the center and make me dance with some rich snobbish bachelor. Unless of course, you want to dress up as a rich snobbish bachelor and whisk me away somewhere."

[¿EmoHowl?]

Alec chuckled and listened to her. A bachelor. He chuckled at the last part and removed one arm to touch his hair, silky, but the front bangs were blue. He also felt his lower lip, a piercing. He groaned, putting his arm back around her.

"I could act gay, make them all feel, awkward. Jesus fine, why did I mention home?.....I'd have to remove my piercing, change my blue hair, and dress.....gayish. I love my tight pants. I don't want to take you back anymore, you talked me out of it. Unless of course, you suddenly want to. If not, you can just sit here in my arms for a second. I have to get used to this kind of stuff, plus, I like holding you. Oh by the way, you aren't reading anything weird through my arms wrapped around you thing? Like that mood thing.."

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The last question he spoke softly. His voice trailing off at the end as he gently rested his chin on her shoulder again. He shut his eyes, he felt her breathe in. No sign of hunger from him, yes he had eaten earlier, but, it was different. There was no, ache in his throat. He had nothing to hold back. He almost forgot himself. He let go opening his eyes, leaning back onto his hands.

"Sorry, I almost forgot. I just have to get used to it, trying to be human. hadn't held anyone for a while. I'm always too stuck in freaking out about being a Vampire. I hate that word....anyways, The only person I've ever held was my first girlfriend, and she's the one that changed me after I decided to try and avoid her. As I remember it, it was an awful experience.[/b][/center]

[zynathme]

She giggled slightly, as he started to regret the idea of going home, of course, it was predictable, he looked nothing like the type of bachelors her mother was obsessed on. But she could tell her he was from another kingdom, that things didn't run the same way as they did.

She pondered that question, realising that it was strange she didn't feel anything. She tilted her head, her expression thoughtful, and then she smiled. "We feel the same, it's rare but possible. It feels nice, not having some random emotion barging into you." She inhaled his scent in, the smile still etched on her face. It was strange how comfortable it was, how ... normal it felt.

She looked curiously at him as he let go of her, and she listened to him intently. "Your girlfriend changed you?" she asked, surprised. She must have been quite a nice girlfriend, she thought to herself, smirking slightly. "Where is she now?" she asked,curious.

[¿EmoHowl?]

Alec cocked his head, he opened his mouth to answer her question but another one came. He winced at the second question. He looked at his feet, his bangs fell in his face.

"She's dead....I killed her. But I've only killed five people. But that was over six years ago, now I just drink off animals...Please don't be scared. I'm not going to hurt you. And yes she changed me, at first, I saw her, I fell in love. An infatuation, over time we dated, then we broke up, she was changed before I was, and I realized it because one day, she became a little too racey on love, if you know what I mean. I saw her eyes, and I stopped, and asked her what was wrong. She got mad and left.....months later she told me what was wrong. I became worried, jealous, felt betrayed, and told her to find a Vampire to love. She changed me instead, and she hid. I found her....killed her. I was new at that time though, Hungry all the time. In a rage, I learned my skills to make a girl fall in love with me. They'd become careless, fall into my trap, suck their blood, and move on. But I began to feel sick after a while, and stopped. I'm different now, I hate being what I am, at first I didn't. And that is all the truth.....Please trust me."

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He looked at her now, his face almost worried. He looked away, as if she could see straight into him. He hadn't ever told anyone that, and he wouldn't be surprised if she walked off. Never came back. He leaned back on the hood of the car, he felt sick again. He let his hands rest on his stomach, he shut his eyes. [/center]

[zynathme]

She was shocked, to say the least. She wasn't expecting that answer, maybe something like the girl left ... but not dead. She looked away as well, not knowing what to think. She wanted to trust him, but she knew that was being reckless. And she didn't want him to go into one of his rages again, just because she was careless with her words.

She observed him, him with his eyes closed and smiled a little before stretching out her hand. She pushed his blue hair back, so that it wasn't covering his eyes. Of course, it was just an excuse to see how he was feeling. She tasted his emotions, and exhaled slowly, thinking.

"You don't need to keep saying that," she chided a little, "I trust you. It's stupid, I know, but I do."

[¿EmoHowl?]

Alec opened his eyes and looked at her. He searched her face, nothing, just a smile. He took her hand in his and sat up.

"But you don't really...."

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He looked at her, his face emotionless. His rage, nowhere to be found. He squeezed her hand lightly before sliding off the car. He landed shoving his hands into his pockets. He stared at the woods, he had a feeling it would end here. Now. It'd never be the same again. He looked down once more.[/center]

[zynathme]

She smiled, returning the pressure, but frowned as he slid off the car. She mentally cursed herself for even bringing up the topic of his girlfriend, vowing not to do that again. She followed him, slower, feeling guilty. Panic started engulfing her all of a sudden and she hurried her footsteps, until she was right behind him, his back facing her. She rested her head on his back, barely touching. She couldn’t stand him feeling upset over her.

“What’s wrong, Alec?” she whispered, still in the same position.

[¿EmoHowl?]

Alec turned when he felt her behind him. He watched her for a second before placing his hands on her shoulders. He watched her again for a second.

"I'm not like that anymore. I don't care about her anyways, she is out of my life. You are in it, and I'm not sure anything could take you from it, not even me, unless of course you left on your accord. I'm not a murderer, I don't attract to kill. Cause' had I been doing that, it'd all have been over by now. I'd have never told you the truth. And I wouldn't be standing here."

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He turned back letting go of her. His hands back in his pockets once more. He examined the ground for a second. He suddenly heard the beach in the distance, he looked up, it was dark overhead. The sun was gone, he looked around removing his hands from his pockets. He turned around.

"Get in the car....We're going back to town."[/b]

As he told her that, he turned around watching the woods. Scanning them, he backed up opening the door for her. He narrowed his eyes, watching, and of course he was more of a Vampire. His eyes glowed a topaz color, his jaw set. His features even seemed dangerous.[/center]

[zynathme]

She watched as he walked away from her, and she stood there unmoving, her eyes narrowed slightly. It was getting chilly, the night getting darker. She suppressed a sigh and walked slowly towards the open door, studying his expression. She shivered, nothing to do with the cold, and she entered the car, sitting down. She knew he worried for her, but there were times when he eluded her -- she didn't understand what he wanted, and how she should act. She sighed, frustrated with him, frustrated with herself.

She swallowed her frustration and asked through the window, "Where in the town then?"